Relationships

So someone who I won't mention thought I should write about people in my past. Is that a good way to state it? I sure hope he thinks so!:) I have a lot of people in my past, some I still talk to and some that I don't. It is an interesting thing when you choose your friends and you decide what they are going to be to you in your life. When you are in the middle of trying to decide what this person is to you, and with some you never figure that out, you just move on. Do you always need that definition or can you just keep going, building the "what if" relationship? Is it a matter of trust and faith that you have to have in God and in that person to know that no matter what happens within this relationship it has happened for a reason. As a female I will admit I have this need or maybe I should say desire to know what the relationship is or where it is going. When I don't have control of that I get frustrated. Is that a lack of trust or faith in God? I'm learning that what is more important is growing in Christ and having more faith and building the relationship and letting the person see me for who I truly am. I think we have all at one point or another within a relationship put on a mask and we haven't let the other person really see us. It's hard to take off the mask and let the other person see inside of you and see you for who you really are. I hope when I say this I don't offend someone when I say it, but I've had a relationship that I was afraid to let him see me. The problem is that he already knew me. I was afraid to let my guard down and become attached to him because I was afraid of being hurt again. I have had a lot of hurt in my life so I felt the need to protect myself. Somewhere in all of this I lost my heart and I lost me. Relationships are built on so many things, but a couple of words that I think of when I hear the word relationships, love and honesty. So I think of those words and start thinking about relationships in general and maybe those two things are the things missing sometimes.
So there it is, thanks B:) Anyway, that's my thoughts for now I wish it could have been more, but it's all I could come up with today!!